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I realized I've been writing a lot lately about physical things. As in I cooked this food for dinner. I bought these cds. I didn't get enough sleep. I have projects pass due. Someone stole our sign.I think when I first started this junk, it was about mental or emotional issues. I'm happy. I'm upset. I'm confused about where I'm going. I love God. I don't love him at all.

I don't really know what happened with that. My focus shifted somehow.

In AA they say that healing, happiness, peace...whatever you want to call it...comes not from understanding and then doing but from doing and then understanding. If you come to meetings, talk about things, and work the steps then things will improve. You don't have to know why.

It's funny how I'm not in AA yet I adopt so much of its philosophy. I think that maybe I have been doing that with my life. It was not in such a sorry state. Maybe I thought it was. It's all a problem of perception. I don't have very many bad days anymore because I don't concentrate on those bad feelings, I only concentrate on the physical actions or real ideas that will make me feel good again.

That means that I like to garden. I've only recently discovered this. I like walking to my classes everyday. It gives me about 10 minutes to not think and to feel like I'm a part of my community. I like a quiet house when I wake up in the morning. I like cooking. I like anything that creates something. My two projects I'm looking forward to right now are building a bookshelf and hanging a swing from the tree in our front yard. I think a big reason I like photography is the tactile-ness of it. I love the big wet sheets of fiber paper after I've run them through the chemical baths. I love how the image just melts and bends in your hands like wet clothes.

I like a good song and a long drive, and there is nothing new about that.

I'm obviously not very zen. I'm not very detached from this world. I like this world a lot. I owe a lot of thanks to a lot of people for that. ...I think I've tired this subject out as far as I should take it. nite.

I realized I've been writing a lot lately about physical things. As in I cooked this food for dinner. I bought these cds. I didn't get enough sleep. I have projects pass due. Someone stole our sign.I think when I first started this junk, it was about mental or emotional issues. I'm happy. I'm upset. I'm confused about where I'm going. I love God. I don't love him at all. I don't really know what happened with that. My focus shifted somehow. In AA they say that healing, happiness, peace...whatever you want to call it...comes not from understanding and then doing but from doing and then understanding. If you come to meetings, talk about things, and work the steps then things will improve. You don't have to know why. It's funny how I'm not in AA yet I adopt so much of its philosophy. I think that maybe I have been doing that with my life. It was not in such a sorry state. Maybe I thought it was. It's all a problem of perception. I don't have very many bad days anymore because I don't concentrate on those bad feelings, I only concentrate on the physical actions or real ideas that will make me feel good again. That means that I like to garden. I've only recently discovered this. I like walking to my classes everyday. It gives me about 10 minutes to not think and to feel like I'm a part of my community. I like a quiet house when I wake up in the morning. I like cooking. I like anything that creates something. My two projects I'm looking forward to right now are building a bookshelf and hanging a swing from the tree in our front yard. I think a big reason I like photography is the tactile-ness of it. I love the big wet sheets of fiber paper after I've run them through the chemical baths. I love how the image just melts and bends in your hands like wet clothes. I like a good song and a long drive, and there is nothing new about that. I'm obviously not very zen. I'm not very detached from this world. I like this world a lot. I owe a lot of thanks to a lot of people for that. ...I think I've tired this subject out as far as I should take it. nite.
My AIM changed to gingermissippy for now. ginger@mosquitoinc.org