Mississippi, you have an ugly, ugly winter. Everything; trees, dirt, grass, water; all turns the same burnt brown. It is worse than other states. Everything is dead. It is all the same color. There is no snow to make it clean and white. Just dead brown.

The weather is worse too, not because it is colder but because it is mediocre. I embrace the Mississippi summers, even if they kill me, because at least it is something extreme that makes mississippi feel like a somewhere. Mississippi: the hot as fuck state. The winters are cold and wet and unpleasant, but not so cold that you can actually complain about it. You can't make comment to people about how bad it is, because it's not THAT BAD in comparison. Mediocrity is the worst fucking thing in the world. Give me good or give me bad but don't give me anything in between because that is where boredom and death sneak in.

I've thought of two band names I really like but I don't think anyone else likes/will like them. One is "Our Brilliant Career", and the other is "Dead Brown".

I am in 5 bands. Have you ever heard of overcompensating in one area when you are missing in another?

I crave intimacy. not sex. Just sharing something very personal. Something about my life, something I'm hesistant to admit, or something besides the same old hug. I crave this and I'm not getting it at all.