I drove to Alabama to see the last xbxrx show. The night started bad and then improved. Jrd and Hannah and Chris kicked my sprits ass back into shape with their music and friendship. In the morning someone had dumstered us waffles and bread. Thanks Bryan in Auburn. Richard and I and someone from Pennsylvania drove south to Panama City to see beach but could not find any because there were so many car dealerships. We left seeing no sand. We arrived in Gainsville and Mikey Hot Sauce gave us couches to sleep on when we showed up with no warning at 1 am. He deserves lots of my appreciation. The next day we walked around Gainsville and saw no one all day. We ate free Krishna food for lunch. We visited and were kicked out of the La Chua trail. We sat outside one restaurant for 4 and a half hours convincing ourselves we were meeting a friend who didn't even know we were in town. It was not boring. Nothing is boring if done properly. We asked for and received free pizza at closing. We ate it on top of a bronze gator statue, then walked around FSU campus. Richard and Pennsylvania were being funny and I was doing little and laughing. I feel third class and unfunny often.

The next morning I felt clearer from sleeping outside. We ate free Krishna food again, then went to dumpster more food at a large health food store. While there we thought my cooling system exploded but it did not. We dropped Pennsylvania off at the on ramp to I 75 south with minimal goodbyes that felt ritual. Mikey rode with Richard and I up to Pensacola. Along the way I stole some soda, food, and batteries. In Pensacola were lots of people that I was very happy to see. They made our trip feel worthwhile. We watched a band called Del Ceilo play and they also improved my mood because they were a rocking all girl band with a great drummer. I fixed the toilet in the venue. I didn't wear shoes all night. We socialized a lot then slept on Ted's floor. Richards feet were above my head and when he moved them it made lots of noise, but I didn't say anything because I usually sacrifice my comfort for not speaking up.

This morning we ate more pancakes by Ted and Chris and then went with Chris to pick up some food from a dumpster at a large grocery store. Here I will go into detail. Ted and others have arranged a deal where the produce manager boxes all the produce that will be thrown away that week and puts it out in the dumpster at a specific time on a specific day. At that time they or we show up and collect all the boxes and then distribute the food among the different community houses in Pensacola. The amount of food that is involved is unreal. Chris continued to hand us box after box of produce to stack in the van quickly. In all I think there may have been 14 or so medium sized full boxes of produce that were being thrown out. For the most part, the produce is not bad, just right at the stage of ripeness when it is actually best to eat. It is simply policy to throw it away so that people willing to pay will have fresh or pre-ripe produce to buy. I cannot fathom how wasteful this is. At the house, chris divided it into 10 different boxes of food each with a bag or two of potatoes, a bag of onions, lots of squash, zucini, bananas, oranges, apples, leeks, lettuce, and some tomatoes. This box will go far to feed the people in that house all week long until they collect the produce the next week.

Our way of living is fucked. We are wasteful beyond belief. There is no doubt.

After collecting all the produce, we went with Hannah to Pensacola beach. It was really pleasant, and you can see why tourists love the beach. It is not because they are dumb or led to go there, it is because beaches are often beautiful and calming to be at. We left the beach in the sun and drove across bridges to take Hannah back and then leave town. We began driving home, thankfully this time most of the driving being across mississippi. We got home at midnight. There were things I had to do around the house like unroll my pillows and blankets and attempt to fix the still broken toilet. I tried to satiate our lonely cat. All of my birthday cake has been eaten. I feel pretty lonely and wrong headed so I drank a lot of wine and now I'm going to sleep.