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I tried out a quirky website called www.colorgenics.com because I like quirky things like horoscopes that seem to tell you all about yourself. I don't believe them anymore really, but I like them for the reason that everyone else likes them...I like to think about and talk about myself. On the colorgenics site you "relax, take a deep breath and concentrate on yourself", then you pick colors from a selection of ten. You begin with whatever color you feel most like (whatever that means) or are most drawn to. Incidentally, my first color was gray. Then once you have chosen all 10 colors in order the site creates a profile for you based on the order of your selections. My profile was this: You have exaggerated demands on life but you are cautious enough to try to hide these beliefs from the outside world. You are covert enough to try to impress other people around you with your achievements and at the same time able to put on an act of pretending to be 'humble' - being the same as everyone else. It would appear, however, that whatever you are doing seems to be working out O.K. You are not be feeling so good at this time. Everything seems to be getting on top of you. What you need is a rest from all of the the present trials and tribulations in peaceful surroundings and with someone - male or female, it doesn't really matter - who can really understand you and appreciates your needs. Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will! You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and you have been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity. In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured. For the most part I thought this profile was right on. High demands on life, feeling down lately, looking for idealized relationship - check! Interesting. It felt good. It felt good to have an order to things. People that feel at home with gray are expecting too much and feeling down lately. But we all know this is how horoscopes work. Horoscopes rely on two things. 1. everything is phrased vaguely to apply to many people. 2. everyone feels that the horoscope is directed at them because they feel that they are the only one feeling how they do at that moment. Maybe it is american "individualism" but we all think that we are so goddamned different from everyone else that it is impossible for us to connect and share. So yea, we think we are different and that the horoscope is just for us. I decided to go back and do a little test. I returned to the site and picked the colors at random without thinking and really without looking at the screen most of the time. I wanted to have as litte personal influence over what was chosen as possible. The profile I received was the following: You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life. Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans. Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you. We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one. You feel that nobody really appreciates you and this is causing you considerable stress. You feel that you have to sublimate your emotions and this is depressing you no end. You feel that the only way you can resolve this untenable situation is to get away from it all and re-establish your own individuality. Co-operation is very important in your life, but this has not been forthcoming from anyone. No-one seems to care and it is because of this situation that you are finding it increasingly more difficult to let yourself go and as a result you are becoming more and more isolated and even, to some extent, introverted. You are displaying a touchy and an over sensitive personality. Trying to take on the whole world doesn't help - you need to relax. Be it through unfulfilled emotional requirements, whatever the circumstances you are experiencing considerable stress, be it mental or physical. To your credit you are attempting to escape from this by endeavouring to create a semblance of peace and serenity by refusing to allow yourself to be involved. You have the strength to 'pull through' and all indications are that you will... perhaps sooner than you even believed possible. When I read this profile, it seemed to fit me even more so than the one that I actually did correctly. I feel that no one really appreciates me. I am having reservations about where to take a particular relationship. I am becoming more and more isolated or introverted. etc. Even though I had proven that the profiles generated where bunk, I didn't feel good about it. I would rather believe that there is order to emotions or people, even if it is only order through colors. It makes me feel good to be predictable, and in some weird way, connected to something. It does not feel good to prove things wrong. When I told my friend that he should attempt redoing it without looking to have more evidence against it like mine, he just said but I like believing it.
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